So, ah. (All my sentences begin like that. I've got to start getting more creative.) For some reason I've managed to become really comfortable with myself lately. Someone tries to offend me and all I can do is shrug. I look like crap and I can't be bothered to care about it. I get an average grade and I think, "Oh. Cool." That's... weird, for an emotional mess like me. I can actually get myself to do my homework without too much trouble, mostly because I manage to notice when my head is playing tricks on me and I can tell it to shut up. There's still tons of things I've promised/planned to do that remain unfinished, but I'm getting there. And hey, I can actually keep myself away from reading slash fics obsessively until early hours of the morning (well, okay, not really, but at least I manage not to walk around like a zombie all day). I do things that make me look like a reasonable person. I can also go to school without too much shit (I always get so depressed and guilt-ridden whenever I skip school too much, even on those days I feel so scared I might piss myself). I can acknowledge that shit happens and allow it to pass without kicking a big fuss over it. I can recognize that I'm being a self-pitying attention-whore and laugh it off, because, dude. Everybody's like that sometimes.

It feels so weird. I haven't felt this type of confidence before. I can suck and be totally okay with it. Really. I look horrible in photos, I'm terrible with kids, I'm clumsy, I say stupid and entirely inappropriate things, I avoid things I hate, I always play safe -- I can list up a million other downsides. But it doesn't matter. Actually, those things have started to make me feel a lot better about myself. I'm human and totally okay with it.

I guess this is what it's like to not take yourself so damn seriously. It feels nice. Really nice.

So how are you guys doing? Like, seriously? I can barely keep up with all your entries, which pop up like, what. Ten times a day? Geeks. ♥ (Not that I actually have a life or anything, I'm just too busy reading sappy love stories. You know me.)

( Look at that cute wittle baby )

Sorry that the pictures are so small, I don't get along well with HTML.

Kitteh photos will show up later today, yay!

You know how sometimes people on your friendslist post about stuff going on in their life, and all of a sudden you think "Wait a minute? Since when were they working THERE? Since when were they dating HIM/HER? Since when???" And then you wonder how you could have missed all that seemingly pretty standard information, but somehow you feel too ashamed to ask for clarification because it seems like info you should already know? It happens to all of us sometimes.


( I had trouble doing this because baby kitty always kept jumping on my keyboardjhhhhhhhhhhhsssssss nnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnx4t fvvvvvvvvvw like now for instance )

I have a kitten. AND SHE IS THE MOST ADORABLE THING IN THE WHOLE WORLD.

(Not my cat, by the way, who is also very cute. It's a new kitten. A fluffy kitten.)

We called her Inspector Clouseau (when she's grown up she'll be promoted to Chief Inspector) and one of my friends almost had to be dragged out of my house because of her. She's so tiny. And fluffy and adorable and pretty. Don't worry, I'll be spamming you guys with pictures in no time.

She's sleeping right next to me now. bjhbjdhvjd I WANT TO CUDDLE HER SO BAD

(And I had to use the same icon as last time because it's simply the most accurate description of how I look right now.)

IT'S SNOWING! LOTS AND LOTS! :D

From xhadowkiss ^^



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And from www.mylifeisaverage.com:

Goddamnit. I'm never any good at writing serious stuff these days. I was trying to finish this depressing fanfic where Sebbie dies and Ciel goes "lol wtf" and then dies as well, which I now can't take seriously anymore because I had to go ruin the whole thing by writing:

And a last breath leaves his lips, along with a single, faint word:

“Blurhrgr.”

xD

WELL IT'S CERTAINLY MORE BELIEVABLE THIS WAY.

Moreover, I found this document with doujinshi plans for Kuroshitsuji that I'd completely forgotten about.

( In an AU, it would only be natural for Sebastian to kidnap Ciel with a bus. )

1. Green tea. Mmm.

2. I am not my face and I am not by talents and I am not my possessions. Silly head. x)

3. My cat is awesome.

4. I've lost The Book of Lost Things. How ironic. xD

DON'T WANNA BE

ALL

BY

MYSEEEEEELF

ANYMOOOOOOOOOOOORE
☆recommend a friend!☆
Look, it sparkles. Surely that must be a good thing. ^^

Oh, Jesus fucking Christ. You set fire to your room, drink blood for shits and giggles, cut yourself everywhere on your body, take pictures of it, and PUT IT ON YOUR FUCKING COMPUTER SO YOU CAN SEND IT TO YOUR FRIENDS. I don't think you're rational enough to realize that you need a psychiatrist, so stop bawling about it you immature little shit.

-_____-

(This is not meant for any of you guys. I just needed to get it off my chest.)

I'm sorry for not answering a lot of your posts lately, but I do try my best to keep up ^^ Even if I don't comment, I do read. I hope you guys are well :)

Uh, so, since everyone is doing it I'm doing it too. ^^'
ANON MEME

... And last night I dreamt that I was Harry Potter and Dumbledore came riding on a motorbike dressed in a badass leather jacket and sunglasses and then we went to Disneyland. THIS IS HOW THE BOOKS SHOULD HAVE ENDED.

I've been looking for this artist for like ages now and I finally found her and I'm so happy and her art is fucking amazing and seriously like whoa I weep in shame next to her brilliance and omg omg omg I love her so much and I'm totally going to become as great as her and it makes me wonder if she ever was mortal once.

*pant pant*

CLICK HERE TO BEHOLD HER MAGNIFICENCE

Even if you're not a fan of Naruto, you should still check out her art. DO IT.

Owowow. My legs. My legs. Ow.

So I was a good girl and did some exercise on Sunday, but I was far too uncreative to do something on my own, so I found this and just went with it. NO I AM NOT ASHAMED. I am, however, in great pain. My calves hurt like a bitch and I could barely get up and walk around yesterday. Obviously there's lots of knots an' stuff in there that didn't like to be strained any further, so now I drag myself about like an old woman. I kind of feel like I'm incomplete without a cane. But no need for me to panic -- it seems like this was a normal reaction (YouTube comments go something like, "CAN'T MOVE HALP", "It works dude, but ouch", "HUFF HUFF HUFF AWESOME HUFF HUFF HUFF OW", "He he I can finally see my ****").

So, yeah. I did aerobics, arabic style. And since I've gotten really interested in belly dancing, it seems I'm one step closer to strip dancing. Hurr hurr hurr.

Oh, and it appears that my hair has decided to rebel against me. So, since I'm hardcore, I won't wash it for, like, three days. Omg. Then I'm gonna rub some oil in it and trim all the split ends. Omg, omg. Evil plan, I haz it.

For neocloud9's birthday, which was on 31st of October. ^^ It's only a quick sketch, but I hope you like it. ♥
( mmmm cake )

'SUP LIVEJOURNALERS

I forgot to make a Halloween piccie. And a present for neocloud9 -___-' *shame shame shame* I will make it, though, it'll just be... late. I'm not good at keeping deadlines of any kind.

SO. HALLOWEEN. Did you guys do anything fun? ♥ Blue and I carved a face on a pumpkin that looked like a mix of ... disorientated, crazy and mutilated. You could say we sucked. I say we were being artistic. (Some people didn't appreciate our art, though, foolish as they were. "What's that? The eye? The mouth? Oh, it's winking! ... No?") I dressed up as a vampire but failed to find anything that could represent my pointy teeth, so I just pretended to be a vegetarian. ^^ (Which I am in real life too, hah.) We watched The Sixth Sense and goodness it's been AGES since I saw that movie. Brought back many memories, it did. THAT BOY IS SO ITTY BITTY AND ADORABLE AND I JUST WANT TO CUDDLE AND HUGGLE AND SNUGGLE HIM. ♥

I also read latest chapter of D.Gray-man. ............ D: OH KANDA. I KNOW I TEND TO BE A LITTLE o_ô ABOUT YOU, BUT YOU'RE VERY PRETTY SO I FORGIVE YOU. And also because all the angst you have to go through is a little unfair, really. (Much lol for Allen popping up from below, though. Heeheehee.)

I learned yesterday that Michelangelo considered himself as a failure in art.

............. o_o'

Oookay, so here's my bunch of fail.

( Kuroshitsuji doodles )

TABLET. I HAZ IT.

( I tried fixing it, aaaaand... )

*runs away laughing manically*

I love Psych. Forever and ever.

Today is also the first time I used my coffee cup for coffee. Ssscore!